Holt House

38 weeks

2012-02-11T10:57:00.000-08:00

I woke up Friday morning so excited because the day had finally arrived.

The day we got to see Chubbies on the ultrasound screen again, see how big he was and then make labor plans with our doctor.

We were sooooooooo excited!!!!

and then the phone rang...it was the doc office saying my doctor wasn't gonig to be in today and would have to reschedule...

First off I don't think doctor's should be able to do this to pregnant women

I immediately started to bawl on the phone and kept saying "sorry. I'm ok, just emotional."

story of my life, right?

haha

We would still get to have our sono, but would have to settle for meeting with a nurse practitioner.

Luckily my NP is an angel and hilarious and Dave and I were cheered up and laughing through the whole appointment with her and felt just fine about having to wait til next Wednesday to meet with our Doc to make labor plans.

Some good news...

I'm dilated to a 1....better than a 0 right? I'm very excited about that.

At our sono the baby's estimated weight is 9lbs. 4 oz.

He also scored an 8/8 on his bio test....we are proud parents lol

I left the appointment smiling but still disappointed that I would have to wait til Wednesday.

And when I woke up this morning I would be lying if I didn't say I was mentally out of patients all ready.

After a morning of sulking and asking Dave to make the fat go away and make my body stop aching....I realized I was being ridiculous.

I've decided to embrace these last few days of having a baby in my belly and want to be as optimistic as possible.

At the very latest I will be induced next Saturday, that is unless I go into labor or the doc decides we need a C-section sooner. I'm up for waiting for next Saturday, one week of HUGE discomfort is better than weeks of pain after a C in my opinion.

Dave is really rooting I can deliver vaginally because he wants to see how I deal with pain. lol

All in all we're both so impatient now and ready for baby boy to be in our arms all ready and happy that

this give Chubbies more time to grow and develope and gives me more time to enjoy the miracle of growing a baby and try and sleep as much as possible.

36 weeks

2012-01-27T17:05:00.000-08:00

I am in a little bit of a state of shock right now.

I just got home from my sono and doctors appointments and guess what folks....

Chubbies is allready about 8 lbs 8 oz. That's the 99 percentile.

She showed me the pictures of the chart and he is OFF IT.

He's only 36 weeks!

At this point even if the measurements are off a bit he is officially HUGE.

My doctor started talking planned C-section today. There is no way they are letting me go to 40 weeks. She's thinking at 38 weeks.

It's just too much of a risk when it comes to baby boy's shoulders to deliver vaginally if they let him get bigger and bigger and bigger...like he's doing.

I just stared at her and got a HUGe smile. I am so excited of the thought of only having to wait 2 more weeks.

And at the same time I felt a little like crying.

Doc's sign off words to me were...."you can go home and tell your husband (who was 10.7 at birth) that he has contributed more than enough to this baby of yours...and that he can carry the next one"

I burst out laughing.

I could very well go into labor still before it comes to having to plan a c though.

I go back to the doc next Friday to check if my body is getting ready for labor and then in 2 weeks for one more sono...after that sono if he's still off the charts then we will plan a c-section for that week.

I'll admit I have often thought a planned C-section would be great...no having to deal with contractions and you know right when baby boy is coming, right??

I've heard mixed things about the recovery.

But I am so afraid of needles and drugs etc. Because I have no experience with any of it really.

I could not be more happy to have such an awsome doctor though. I love her. She is so on the ball and makes me feel like I can do anything like a champ.

Other good news is if I have a planned C-section in my 38th week baby boy will be here before all of daddy's exams comes so they will get to spend more quality time together.

My due date fell directly in the middle of all of his exams....which is AWFUL for dad and me because dad would be tortured to leave and study for them and we would miss him terribly.

Also my mumsy can schedule her flight out to stay with me and chubbies and not worry about missing a moment.

I feel good about this!
So excited.

Now I just need to go return any newborn or 0-3 month clothes I have and just get 6 month clothes instead lol

34.5 weeks

2012-01-17T11:45:00.000-08:00

My job has ended so I am in full nesting mode. Cleaning, Organizing, reading up and lots and lots of praying that I will be a good mommy.

It's finally snowing here...and freezing, so I have been trying to get my exercise by walking at the mall and today it was a few laps around target.

Finding adorable pants for 2.00 at old navy and handsome lil shirts for 1.50 at Target are my reward for walking lol

Since our apartment is so small here in Champaign we have to pack up some things to ship to St.Louis to make room for baby boys bed and swing and a rocker and my mom who is going to come stay with us for a little over a week after he comes.

I can't believe we only have a few more weeks.

I can't wait to hold my little baby bubba.

My favorite thing to do is drink orange juice because it gets chubbies all hyped up and wiggly. I'll drink a glass and then just watch my belly move all over the place from his rolls, kicks and punches.

I've finally forced myself to take a few naps during the day. I get so tired and have just learned I can't do everything I want to in a day anymore.

His other Half

2012-01-09T06:33:00.000-08:00

If you know my husband, you know he is a cowboy at heart.

He has been waiting his whole life to get a real pair of cowboy boots.

He has saved almost every spare penny he's received for the last while for the day he could buy some.

(Can you tell how happy he is holding those boots?)

I'm happy to report...Dave was such a good boy that Santa brought him some boots.

Dave has now met his other half, he is now complete.

I didn't think a man could love a pair of shoes so much.

Or that he could be so stinkin' cute in them.

YEEHAW!

third trimester

2012-01-07T06:42:00.000-08:00

THEN...

I was 30 weeks. Had been feeling just great for a while and enjoying my growing baby bump.

NOW...

I'm 33 weeks....and all of the sudden I feel like I have become pathetic.
If something falls to the ground...it stays on the ground.

It's become extremely hard to get on my shoes and pants....because of the bending over and also because my feet are so so swollen.

My Belly is just HUGE.

I lose all of my energy so quickly.

I can't sleep because I'm pretty uncomfortable and chubbies kicks are so strong now they wake me up.

Peeing has become almost an hourly event it feels like.

and when I get overly tired or hungry the tears just start flowing, which Dave keeps saying is so cute but I think he is just being sweet....like always.

I LOVE BEING PREGNANT!

I just can't get over the fact that Heavenly Father designed a way for a little baby to grow inside of me.

I feel so so so blessed to have this little man with my in my tummy all day long and am anxious for him to come so I can hold him in my arms and give him kisses all day long.

People are so friendly to pregnant women and just love to come up and talk to me and asked me questions about everything, offer me a seat or drink.

Also I love watching my husband and the seeing the sweet things he does or says to me and our little baby boy. I'm so lucky to have such a wonderful husband and sweet father for our son.

We had an ultrasound yesterday at the doctor and we got to see chubbies face.

Can you see his little nose and cheeks....his fist just below his chin...

I think he's posing like uncle Rico.

Here's what we learned at the doctor.

His head is down...woo hoo

He weighs about 5 lbs. 11 oz.

(72nd percentile, so as of now he's the perfect size, not overly huge at all like we thought he might be, so hopefully he stays on that path, and I still have weeks to go)

His body is measuring a week ahead of schedule length-wise

Our doctor just kept saying..."everything looks excellent! Which is just what a mom wants to hear.

Daddy Dave and I stared at his picture all day long yesterday.

We are excited to start setting up his crib and cleaning house so that we are all ready for whenever he might come.

The closer Labor comes for me the calmer I have been about it. I used to be deathly afraid of the pain I knew would be coming...I've been saying lots of prayers that I will be calm and nice during contractions....I really want it to be an enjoyable experience for Dave rather than me being a crazy at him the whole time.

I just have no idea what I'm going to be like.

It's so close now, yet so far.

WE DID IT

2011-12-17T07:08:00.000-08:00

WE DID IT!

We survived our first semester of medical school.

Dave passed all of his classes with flying colors and even got a few Os.

(outstandings)
Shockingly enough I see him more than I did when he was doing his undergrad at BYU.
He loves the knowledge he is gaining and even though a lot of it is over my head I love hearing him tell me all about it. He gets so excited.
He was in classes or studying from 8 am to 8 pm most days. And when it was a week with tests it was usually more.
But he always made time to come home and be with me and chubbies and we always had date night.
He has been so dedicated and hardworking!

I couldn't be more proud of him

and I couldn't be more excited for him to have 3 weeks of freedom to do whatever the heck he wants with himself over christmas break.

He deserves it.
I have been blessed to make lots of good girlfriends whose husbands are students as well and we kept each other company doing crafts and going to the park with their kids and going for walks etc.

The semester went by so quick, we are hopeful that the next 7 semesters will fly by just as fast.

Christmas

2011-12-14T14:01:00.000-08:00

My boss asked me yesterday if mormons celebrate Christmas.

This question caught me way off guard and I quickly replied "YES"

and explained that the full name of our church is

The Church of JESUS CHRIST of latter day Saints.

That "mormon" is just a nick name because we believe in the Book of Mormon.

We then talked about missions, where the chapel is in our town and a few other things.

I just want to clarify that I believe in Jesus Christ. I know that he was born in a manger and raised my his earthly parents Mary and Joseph but is the son of God.

He lived his life as an example to all of us.

He suffered for my sins.

The greatest gifts I have ever received and will ever receive are from my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

And Christmas is my favorite holiday because I reflect on those gifts and my wonderful Savior's birth.

Thanksgiving Highlights

2011-12-01T06:50:00.001-08:00

Dave and I spent our Thanksgiving break in St.Louis with the whole Holt clan.

There were 13 adults, 16 neices and nephews in one house for one week.

A recipe for memories.

Here are some highlights from our week.

Bon Fires in the clearing.

Watching Grandma & Grandpa give tractor rides all day and night.

Hanging out with our cute nephews and nieces.

Brushing the goats, watching them attack Angie for the banana she brought.

Cage fighting at the Zoo with uncle David.

Funny faces, cute nieces.

these just make me laugh

hehe haha

more Zoo pics

Penguins

Dave calling the Bears. haha

Eating at Pappy's...our favorite BBQ place in the country.

Playing Dodgeball and milk jug lacrosse at the church on a rainy day

Making gingerbread houses....well gingerbread mansions really.

Getting makeovers from our wonderful nieces.

Talent Show.

Our rendition of rolling in the deep by Adele.

Breakdancing.

Musicals.

Dancing and singing.

Dave reminding his parents that he is still the baby.

but one of my favorite parts of the week was each time a little niece or nephew came to me to give Chubbies a hug and talk to him through my belly.
We loved every minute of it.

I'm so thankful to have married into such a wonderfully large, loving and fun family.

Labor & Delivery Class 1

2011-11-30T18:40:00.001-08:00

So tonight Dave and I headed to the hospital to attend our first labor and delivery class.

Chubbies kicked and punched the whole way through it.

Our teacher Paula is really funny. She has been working at the hospital delivering babies for 38 years....so she kinda knows what she's talking about and was up for any questions and have really realistic answers.

She also has no pride lol.

When it came to finding positions to help me deal with labor pains and having Dave coach me through them....We Failed. Dave just kept saying hilarious things in my ear and I spent each 60 second contration trying not to giggle out loud and disturb everyone else's concentration. Oh how I love that man.

We are also on board for having music playing while I'm giving labor and are going to spend the next few weeks making a killer mix tape.

The highlight of the evening.....watching my very first birthing video....I'm not going to lie...my mouth was open the whole time. I was a little overwhelmed. But when the lady got to hold her baby for the first time I felt the emotions come over me...I cried the car ride home.

I'm just so excited for the moment I get to hold my baby boy and am willing to go through anything to get there.

Chubbies you are so worth it....and so loved.

At 28 weeks reality is setting in. I'm feeling great. We've settled on a name, but love calling our baby by his nick name ,chubbies, for now, so we'll wait and use his name when he's born.

I can't believe my 1st two trimesters have all ready come and gone.

chubby toes

2011-11-04T10:19:00.000-07:00

I'm 24 weeks and I have started getting swollen ankles, toes and legs....

I didn't think this would happen so soon.

I thought I had a good month or so til this would happen.

My doctor said I'm just one of those lucky moms.

We can't help but laugh at my chubby little toes.

Lots of elevating going on over here at the Holt House.

October

2011-11-04T10:13:00.000-07:00

October was a fun month.

We carved pumpkins and watched a scary movie. Too scary of a movie.

We took our punkin' to the pumpkin patch.

(He's growing strong and he's a mover)

Enjoyed the great fall weather.

(These are our awsome poses)

Walked through the apple orchards

decorated a bit...not much

This horribly scary spider decor was sent to us from Dave's mom.

(I hate spiders and swear this one is cursed because spiders keep showing up in our apartment after I hung it.)

We were pretty lame this Halloween and didn't dress up at all. It was quite a shame but with me working and dave in med school we are both equally exhausted and all we wanted was a relaxing night at home on Halloween together.

Which was WONDERFUL.

We did buy Chubbies his first cowboy hat that he can wear from 0-12 months.

I'm hoping this is his daily costume lol.

The picture doesn't really do it justice. It's just so small and adorable.

Hope you all had a wonderful October.

We're thankful to be one month closer to meeting our baby boy.

HUGE

2011-10-27T14:21:00.000-07:00

It dawned on me again this morning...that baby boy has potential to be a HUGE baby

We have 2 grandpas that weighed 13 lbs at birth

a daddy who was almost 11 lbs

All Holt men are now Giants.

and a mommy who was almost 10 lbs

and not too short herself.

Chubbies has a femur growing 3 weeks ahead of schedule...so he's going to be tall.

So I'm wondering how big will my belly need to get to make enough room for Chubbies to grow?

I'm feeling large and in charge and still have 4 months to go!!!

So how big will our baby boy be????

second tri-mester Happenings.

2011-10-19T07:48:00.000-07:00

I love my husband soooooooo much.

Which is why I feel so awful that I'm making him freeze every night.

I am just so hot at night that I have a fan blowing on me and the air conditioning on, even though it's only around 40-50 degrees outside.

I think it's time to whip out our blankets for him to get snuggly and warm in at night.

This morning before my shower we just giggled at my body and how it is resembling humpty dumpty a little bit these days. My bum and my belly are getting HUGE!

Today I plan to organize all of our clothes and shelves in our bedroom to make room for chubbies' clothes and diapers etc.

(I can't wait til we move to Peoria this summer so I can decorate a nursery for lil man)

We are getting even more excited for chubbies!!

I've learned I was really spoiled off the bat that Dave got to feel Chubbies kick so early and that I felt him so often and powerfully. He went a whole day before kicking this week and I got so worried, but he's just must have worn himself out. Our baby boy is so considerate though, because I had a talk with him that night and told him how worried it was making me and that "it helps mommy to not get scared when she can feel you kick" and immediately after I got done saying that He gave me a good big kick.

Our lol Boy is such a good listener.

Oh I'm more in love with him every day!

He's really movin' now

2011-10-07T21:24:00.000-07:00

Tonight we enjoyed a nice night out with our friends Mackenzie and Andrew.

Another fun married couple in the med program here.

We went to BBQ and then to the best frozen custard place in town.

All night long Chubbies had been moving around a lot.

I had never felt him moving like that before.

It was really distinguishable. Not to be mistaken with gas or something like that.

I KNEW it was Chubbies!

So when we were sitting at the tables enjoying our yummy custard I thought I would see if Dave could feel the baby.

I just grabbed his hand and put it on my belly while he was chatting away with Andrew and he turned and looked right up at me and said

"I just felt him"

We were both actually really surprised.

Neither of us have felt him from the outside yet.

It was pretty exciting.

Since we were out with friends we didn't really make a big deal about it, but as we drove home we couldn't stop smiling and talking about what had happened.

I just wanted to blog about it so we remembered our first time daddy felt Chubbies move.

I'm still getting used to this whole, having a baby moving inside of me thing, but I am learning to love it pretty quickly....even though it is a really strange feeling.

What's up with the nick name?

2011-10-06T07:45:00.000-07:00

I've had a lot of people ask me why we call our baby Chubbies, so here ya go.

This summer our Nephew Mason, who is about 2 I think, was walking around the kitchen saying "I unt chubbies". Dave and I couldn't understand what he was talking about so he kept repeating it over and over again.

"I unt Chubbies, I unt Chubbies"

First of all you have to understand that the way Mason talks, everything he says is so cute.

We figured it was some kind of food he was asking for so Dave opened up the fridge and looked around and saw some strawberries and held them out to Mason and asked "Chubbies?"

To which Mason got a huge grin and said "Yea" in his adorable way.

Dave and I couldn't stop laughing about how cute this experience was and we kept imitating Mason saying "I unt Chubbies" all day long.

When I got on the computer that night I was looking up how big my baby was and it said that at 9 weeks its the size of a strawberry.

So our baby from that point on was called Chubbies.

my favorite is when we say our prayers at night and Dave prays

"for Chubbies to keep growing healthy and strong".

Makes me smile every time.

Now we call him Chubbies, Chubs, Chubby Wub, The Chubster.

LOL.

I can't really picture us calling him anything else at this point....even after he comes I'd imagine we'll still be calling him that.

20 weeks

2011-10-05T13:58:00.000-07:00

A year ago today We were sitting in a Doctors office crying because we couldn't see a heart beat for our little one, they had gone to heaven.

I will always love my little angel in heaven.

This morning I took the time to thank my Heavenly Father for all the Love He has for me and my little family. I felt it a year ago and I felt it today.

(and many many moments in between)

I haven't taken any moment of this pregnancy for granted.

This afternoon I got to see my Chubbies with a wonderfully healthy and strong heartbeat.

I couldn't help but cry when I saw the little flutter of chubs big ol heart.

The nurse looked at me and said "we haven't even gotten to the good stuff" lol

I love seeing this beautiful little baby so much!

Look how big Chubbies is getting!

and IT'S A BOY...
(our initial instincts were right on)

...a BIG boy. He's got really long legs and HUGE hands and feet apparently.

He measures over 2 weeks ahead of schedule for height, so he will be tall.

It's perfect for his future BYU football career.

Dave and I could not be more EXCITED about our little guy.

look at his cute toes.

giving us the thumbs up.

One other highlight was watching Chubbies have a big YAWN

and wiggle around like crazy

Just adorable.

February will be here before we know it.

I just keep picturing a little mini Dave in my life and I can't wait.

I'm the luckiest woman in the world!!

Julia

2011-09-14T08:33:00.000-07:00

My sweet niece Julia got baptized a couple of weeks ago and Dave and I were so fortunate to be able to go and spend the weekend with her and her family to celebrate up near Chicago.

From the day I joined the Holt family Julia has made me feel like the luckiest Aunt in the world.

She will climb up on my lap and snuggle and give me the biggest hugs.

She calls me on the phone just to talk.

She is just the most darling loving little girl.

Julia asked me to speak at her baptism.

I was so touched.

Her baptism was wonderful and she was so happy all weekend.

I'm so proud of you Julia and the wonderful choices you're making in life.

You are BEAUTIFUL inside and out.

16.5 weeks

2011-09-12T08:19:00.000-07:00

I have been feeling pretty good as of late, but last night was the WORST. I had a nightmare that was horrifying and I woke up starving...so I ate some olives and watermelon, which sounds disgusting now but sounded so good at the time...then when I went to lay back down I felt a rush of awfulness and ran to the bathroom to then proceeded to throw up everything and anything.

And to make matters worse I peed my pants.

Its official. I have no control over my bladder when I am throwing up.

AWSOME!

It took me some time to fall back a sleep after. I still was not feeling very good.

Which gave me a lot of time to think...and to thank my Heavenly Father.

Most women probably think I am crazy but this is what I asked for.

I worry a lot about my baby. I try not to. But I can't ever help but feel anxiety before each doctors appointment that I'm going to show up and they are going to tell me that we lossed another baby.

So I have been praying to Heavenly Father to help me stay calm and keep me reassured by keeping me sick.

And as I laid back in bed last night I couldn't help but cry and be thankful that Heavenly Father blessed me last night by being sick. It helped me to calm myself and know that my baby was fine and that I didn't need to be afraid to go to the doctor again.

I felt so loved and comforted.

And today's appointment was GREAT.

I heard the little Chubbies heartbeat in the 150s.

I learned I have gained a whopping 8 lbs...YAY!

(only I just look fat not pregnant lol story of my life)

I got all my questions answered by my wonderful NP.

I passed all my screenings with flying colors.

And the greatest news of all...We scheduled our ultrasound to find out if Chubbies is a boy or girl and it just so happens to be the day after Dave's Birthday...I can't think of a better way to spend his birthday week than getting to see our baby.

So I'm back to bed now, I'm exhausted because I got no sleep last night. But I feel so eternally grateful for the past 12 hours and that they showed me how much my Heavenly Father loves me and Chubbies.

Maine

2011-09-02T10:44:00.000-07:00

Well, sadly our reunion with the Holt Clan ended and we headed back to Dave's parents house where we would be staying for a few weeks until medical school started.

These two nieces came back with us to Grandma's house where we played for a week until Uncle Dave and I flew them back to Maine to their parents and to spend a week exploring Maine.

We got off the plane and met up with this little cutie (our nephew) and his mom and went straight to the Beach.

Maine is beautiful.

then we went to what people in Maine call "camp" but it's really a lake house.

We enjoyed lots of time swimming, boating, jet skiing, roasting hot dogs and marshmellows and lots of fishing.

Dave, his sister and brother in law did a triathalon one morning while I stayed home all snuggled in bed with three little cuties watching cartoons and eating crackers.

(morning sickness isn't so bad with nieces and nephews to help you smile through it)

We spent a day in Bar Harbor

Just goofing around and trying lobster ice cream.

I can't even remember all of the other beaches and towns we went to but they were all gorgeous.

To top it all off we had some delicious Maine Lobster in the backyard.

My only regret is that I was sick a lot of the time growing my baby so I didn't feel as fun and adventurous as I usually am...but we had a wonderful time regardless and hope to go back soon.

Ozarks

2011-09-02T10:17:00.000-07:00

We reluctantly left Cali and drove back to Utah. We rested there for a night and then started our BEAST of a rode trip to Illinois with all of our things.

We made it safely to Dave's parent's house and before we unpacked anything we left for Dave's annual family reunion at the Trout Lodge in the Ozarks.

Our rooms overlooked this lake.

The highlights for me this week were

1. Finding out I was pregnant (YAY)

2. Spending time with all of the these fun people

3. Watching my family zip line

There goes Dave again.

Even mama Holt tried it

and she definitely had the most style.

Stinson Beach

2011-09-02T09:32:00.000-07:00

After our biking adventure through SF we decided we better take it easy the next day so we headed to Stinson Beach...where my mom always took me...our goal was to relax and hopefully get rid of our wicked awsome farmers tans from the day before as Dave demonstrates below.

It was also fun to go back because when Dave and I were dating I took him on a date here when he came to visit from Illinois.

Here's Dave boogie boarding and having tons of fun.

We took a walk down to the rocks

and saw some crabs and a star fish.

Maybe one day we'll buy a beach house here. I wouldn't mind that.

Overall...it was a wonderfully relaxing and fun day...but we still have farmer's tans.

San Fransisco

2011-09-02T09:24:00.000-07:00

I'm doing catch up of our summer now...

Dave and I decided we better go out to my hometown for a few days before we shipped out to Illinois and became even poorer med school students who could never afford to go to California.

Besides visiting with all of my lovely family there we decided to do a few of my favorite things.

Our first California adventure was to bike ride down the coast of San Fransisco, from Embarcadero to the other side of the Golden Gate Bridge.

One of my favorite memories with my mom is when we did this together.

And now it's one of my favorite memories with my hubs.

So we woke up early and loaded ourselves and our bikes onto BART and headed over to SF.

We road around the new Giants stadium and then headed down all of the piers.

We saw seals and crazy street preformers and went in some of the shops.

We stopped for lunch at one of my favorite places...Boudines...and got ourselves some clam chowder bowls

and checked out of of the fun bread animals they were making that day.

Then we headed past the famous "bush man" witnessesing him scare about 10 people to death as they walked past him on the street just in time for him to pop out and scare them.

I don't know why I get such a kick out of watching him do this but he's been there every time I've ever gone to SF growing up.

Then we stopped at the beautiful Palace of Fine Arts and explored and fed the ducks.

Then continued down to the beach where we stopped and had some yummy fruit we picked up at Pier 39 and chatted with some Australian girls.

And before we new it we had made it to the bridge. Where we kissed, rested, watched a couple get engaged right next to us and watched a wind surfer almost hit a barge. We rode all the way across to Sausalito and then back to Embarcadero to ride home on BART.

It was the perfect day. Perfect weather, perfect company, perfect views.

When we got home we did used the website "map my run" and calculated that it was about 30 miles we had gone....it was so much fun...and we slept like babies that night.

Wrestle a Cougar

2011-08-26T08:34:00.000-07:00

I've been going through boxes of papers and trying to declutter our lives and today I came across this beauty.

BEHOLD

"Dave's Life Bucket List"

Own a ranch (minimum of 50 acres - 2000 acres maximum)

Go to Space

Cage diving with sharks

Helicopter over a volcano

Learn to fly

Scuba certified

Skydiving

Hang gliding

Wind Surfing

Swim with whales

Bear hunting

Seven wonders of the world

Wrestle a cougar

Wrestle an alligator

Olympics

Championship

Safari

Ninja Warrior

Lot of traveling

Cabin

Live in multiple countries

Climb the seven peaks

Heli-skiing

Ride a bike across the nation

Deep sea fishing

Run in Spain with the bulls

I laughed all the way through this and then I realized he could seriously get injured doing almost all of these things but if given the chance wouldn't hesitate to still do them.

Turns out he made this with his buddies when they should have been working in the BYU lab.

Oh BOYS!

End of the first trimester

2011-08-22T09:36:00.001-07:00

Moving and starting a new phase of life has been a little exausting...

But getting to see this wiggly little bundle of joy inside of me last week gave me a burst of energy.

I wish I could get a sonogram and say hello to this little sugar booger everyday.

We are so excited to be done with the first trimester. I have been feeling really good lately and feel lucky to be able to take lots of naps, because I get wiped out really easily these days. Also it's nice to be able to actually EAT food again! I really missed food. lol

We celebrated our 3 year anniversary last Tuesday.

We're all settled into our new apartment.

We got to go to our new church's ward and we all ready LOVE IT HERE.

Dave spent last week in orientation for med school.

I got to go to a few events and meet his fellow class mates.

There are lots of wives and we have all ready hung out quite a few times and decided to keep each other company while our husbands are hard at work studying.

Today Dave started his first official day of classes in medical school.

I woke up, packed him a lunch and sent him off with a kiss.

I can't wait for him to come home so I can hear all about it.

Life is just too exciting with a baby on the way and a Doctor in the making.

Now I'm off to take another nap.

I'm exhausted.

love

2011-08-09T10:22:00.000-07:00

This morning I was reminded that I am married to a MAN

a very cute man...

with a cute little bootay.

Oh how I love him!!!

Pregnant

2011-08-04T10:42:00.000-07:00

I'm Pregnant!!!

Saying those words make me the happiest woman alive right now.

Our love bug is scheduled for delivery in February.

Dave and I have had a long road to recovery after we lost our little one last October and I can honestly say that although it was the most heart breaking expirience I've ever been through I am greatful for what has become of it. I know our little one is in a much much better place. I know we will meet our little one again one day, I'm excited to be growing their sibling. Dave and I have a firm and strong faith in our Heavenly Father's plan for us and our family. We are closer than we ever were.

Our two little ones all ready have a one thing in common.

They were conceived in the same month exactly one year apart from one another.

What are the odds.

Any sooner and I don't think I would have been ready emotionally.

Any later and I would have started getting anxious.

Heavenly Father just has PERFET timing.

This pregnancy is considered high risk, beacause my last miscarriage was well into my second trimester. At first this sounded really scary to me, but what that really means is that I get ultrasounds early and often and my doctor is really thorough and attentive.

Just what any mother could ask for.

At ten weeks we got our first ultrasound.

We saw the heartbeat, healthy and strong.

(the first heartbeat we've ever seen or heard)

It was amazing, I cried like the boob that I am. I was overwhelmed with how amazingly strong our little is all ready. Dave just sat there with a huge grin on his face and said nothing. It was adorable.

The best part was when "chubbies" waved their little arm as if to say "hey mommy and daddy" and we replied "hey chubbies" (our awsome nickname for them)

My first trimester has been good to me.

I sleep A LOT!

I eat when ever I can....my appetite has completely left me

(Shocking I know)

wintergreen TUMS are my best friend.

There has been a heat wave in St.Louis the past 18 days...and with the humidity it feels like it's 105-110 degrees outside and since I all ready feel hot all of the time I have been spending all of my time indoors reading, sleeping ,sewing, sleeping and catching up on good movies, after which I will take a good nap.

This baby is taking all of my energy....I'm convinced they are going to be awsome.

Dave and I both feel like it's going to be a boy, which means it will probably be a girl.

We can't wait to find out though.

Thank you to all of my wonderful friends and family who kept us in your prayers.

They totally worked....We're having a BABY!!!

We are still alive

2011-07-31T16:23:00.000-07:00

Ok so I haven't posted anything since April...

and even then my posts were kind of lacking.

We have been on such a whirlwind of AWSOMENESS these past few months.

And with our computer packed away with all of our other belongings and my camera loaded with pictures...you can bet that one day very soon ya'll are going to get blogger overload from the Holts.

But for now, just know we are as happy as can be, surrounded by Holt family....

In this corn field covered place called Illinois.

(that I am learning to love)

NOPE

2011-04-08T07:44:00.001-07:00

So my last post was about cosmotology school.

I was getting really excited about it and spoke with a director on the phone and was starting to work it all out.

After I said a prayer that sounded like this...."Heavenly Father, I have decided I'm going to Cosmotology school here and will start on this date..."ya da ya da...

Shortly after I had a very distinct answer given to me.

So I won't be going. I Very Sad at first and when I told Dave he said he was kind of relieved, because he didn't feel like it was a good time for it.

But I think that just means there is something else I need to be focusing on and will be blessed with.

So I am excited to find out what that is........

Cosmo Girl

2011-04-06T13:05:00.000-07:00

Cosmetology school has been on my brain for a few years now.

I have always loved the idea of going.

but I always felt like I should get my degree

but although i love learning....I would much rather spend my time being creative

and I hate deadlines

plus tuition costs for cosmo school always scared me away.

This semster I have taken a career major and exploration class and a student sucess class.

I've learned so much about my learning style and what I love to do and what I would be good at.

and cosmotology school now seems to be back on my brain because all arrows point to the fact that I would love it.

So....yesterday I did my research on schools in Illinios.

Now I'm doing lots of praying.

I could get my liscense in 9 months but that would mean neither Dave nor I would be working...

which is a scary thought in medical school.

What's new with Dave??? He still has senioritis like crazy. It's really bad. He is getting so excited for our summer adventures and medical school. He is also excited for the BLUE&WHITE game this saturday where the byu football team has a scrimmage among themselves.

It will be our last football game for some time.

He is also slimming down and getting ripped and is one hot little potato.

Which translates into I need to get my but into gear for bathing suit season. I can't wait to have time to work out again. I miss it sooooooooo much.

Home Stretch

2011-04-04T10:38:00.001-07:00

There are only a few weeks of school left.

This is great news.

Except that there are a million projects and things I need to study for in such a short amount of time.

Not to mention that we have oodles of family here now and coming in and out all month.

This month will be a true test of how efficient I can be with my time.

BRING IT!

Then we're off for our summer adventures from California to Maine.

yep we'll be traveling across the whole country.

WOOOO HOOOO!

Fun Fact Friday

2011-03-29T13:34:00.000-07:00

I have been so busy I keep forgetting to post these fun facts...which is a shame because I love deciding what to post on this occasion.

this weeks fun fact...

My lovely sister ashley who is only 7 months prego with a GYNORMOUS baby officially weighs more than me now!

BY ONE POUND!

ignore the fact that I'm fat and enjoy this moment with me!

This has never happened in our life and will probably never happen again.

She is so dang cute!

She brought me cookies on my birthday and Dave and I giggled while her belly bounced when she laughed.

I also got to feel my nephew move around like crazy for the first time.

It was a great birthday gift package.

Thanks Sis!

Blessed

2011-03-29T13:03:00.000-07:00

This last weekend we took a road trip to Logan

to visit with our good friends the Mathews and attend their little Tucker's baby blessing.

We had our semi annual trip to Texas Road House together and

a red box movie night.

Tucker's dad gave him such a wonderful heart felt blessing Sunday.

They are such good parents.

These three will dearly be missed when we head out to the mid west.

but there are just some people in life that even if you don't see them for a few months or years....you always pick up right where you left off.

We look forward to lots of fun trips to visit each other in the future!!!

JAPAN

2011-03-18T12:57:00.000-07:00

Our HEARTS and Prayers go out to Japan.

I can't help but cry when I think about all of these people and the fear,

devastation and loss they are dealing with

after an earthquake, a tsunami and now nuclear plant danger too.

I wish I could fly there now and help.

But We are praying numerous times a day for our brothers and sisters in Japan.

puppy search

2011-03-06T14:12:00.000-08:00

Dave saw this poster hanging at B.Y.U. this week

and brought it home to show me.

And I knew I needed to help share as well.

If you can't read what it says on the poster I posted it below the picture...

"Name: Sir Bubbalouie. Bubba or The Bubbs to his friends

Last seen: Chilling on the couch, with nothing but love in his heart and a rumbling in his tummy, both his heart and tummy are big

Has a shiny black coat with a majestic white face and chest, big brown eyes, and a little tail that curls like a cinnamon roll.

Not ashamed of any bodily finctions, they give him a sense of accomplishment

Has two loves: Friends and Food

Not interested in mainstream things like politics, reality TV or baths

Not lost, just wanted to show you how awsome my dog is."

How funny is that!!!

NEEDLESS TO SAY...We are so excited to get a dog once we find an apartment in Illinios. We can't decide what kind, but this poster made us seriously consider this dog.

other types we have thought of

Shi-poo

Shitzu

Pomeranian

Pug

Yorky

French Bulldog

chi wawa (all Dave, I am not sure about that)

What do you guys think we should get???

Friday Fun Fact

2011-03-04T22:36:00.001-08:00

Friday Fun Fact

We are going to live with my brother Chad in his new craftsmen style house in Lehi for the month of May.

(they haven't even started moving in yet.)

in return for their kindness we will be cooking them amazing meals here.

when I say we I really mean Dave. We all know he is the mastermind in the kitchen.

The kitchen is AWSOME!

We are going to have so much fun with them

and my little neice is the cutest thing EVER.

(The latest proof that she is adorable)

Plus we get to save on rent for a month also

which is great because moving is expensive.

WOO HOO

Chad you are awsome!!!

Time to Party Again

2011-03-03T13:33:00.000-08:00

After throwing a space mission birthday for the boy I nanny in January I didn't know how we were ever going to top it.

The boys and girl has so much stinking fun at the Space Center in PG on their simulated space mission and talked about it for weeks after.

But now it's time for his sisters birthday!

She loves Fashion and make-up and all things girlie

She actually is sketching pictures of designs all the time and we make clothes for her american girl dolls sometimes. She is a STAR and always wants to be the center of attention.

I am using all my free time from mid terms and research papers to prepare

for her birthday party this weekend.

We are doing a movie and makeover party.

perfect theme for her right???

Each girl gets her hair and make-up done.

jewelry

a feather boa

wears their best red carpet dress

and then gets to walk the red carpet down the stairs

while getting her photo taken

and they will all end up downstairs in the newly finished movie theatre

where they will watch Mega Mind in 3-D

Lots of planning for me

but I am looking forward to the end results this weekend

Should be lots of fun.

Did I mention I love my Job!!!!!!

I can't believe this is the third round of birthdays I will be celebrating with the

little munchkins.

FEVER SCARE

2011-03-01T12:27:00.000-08:00

This morning when I woke up the girls for school they were burning up.

They were tossing and turning in their beds.

Had a case of the sweats.

I ran down stairs to get the thermometer.

and ran back up as fast as I could

I sat them up to take their tempature.

they could barely hold still.

after seeing the results I was relieved to realize they just had

Bieber Fever

They are going to be just fine it turn out

The Dr can't tell me how long this is sappose to last though

we saw "Never Say Never" last night, the Justin Bierber concert movie

needless to say they LOVED it and are having a few side effects

haha

On the Brain

2011-02-27T16:03:00.001-08:00

Day 27

People keep telling me that it is common to not get a positive until you actually go into the doctor and get tested.

A friend at church today told me her sister in law went in being 2 months late like me and bingo, she was totally prego!

I haven't heard back form Dr. Grover, but I am making an appointment first thing tomorrow after noon.

If it's a negative still...

Dave and I plan to go to Sushi in SLC this weekend and try harder lol

If it's a positive....I'll let cha know.

Either way...

I know Heavenly Father knows what's up

I am "practicing my patience"

just like I always tell the kids I nanny to do.

Dave and I have talked multiple times about if we should wait to tell people when I get pregnant again until we are in the safe zone...

but technically I was in the "safe" zone last time

So we have both decided that there is no point in waiting next time.

(I am also horrible at keeping secrets of my own)

So we plan to share the news in a timely manner

and if I do end up miscarrying again, at least I will have friends and family to help comfort me again.

It's a scary thought that I might have to go through all of the emotions all over again.

But I would do it a hundred times if I got a beautiful baby in the end.

And it is comforting to know that about myself.

My due date was March 12th. So Dave and I have signed up to run in the Rex Lee Run that day.

Which is something to celebrate, because Dave purposed to me the same day I ran the Rex Lee Run in 2008. I am looking forward to having a day full of wonderful memories and recognizing how blessed I am to be healthy and strong with a husband I adore.

YOU should come join us!

Friday Fun Fact

2011-02-26T08:18:00.000-08:00

Do you see a resemblance?

It's pretty silly...

but when Dave was on his mission I developed a huge crush on

Jerry O'Connell

because he reminded me of Dave

lol

I used to watch his show all the time.

But now that I have my Dave back I could care less.

whenever I see Mr. O'Connell now I just laugh to myself

T.M.I.

2011-02-23T12:44:00.000-08:00

Day 23

and still no visit from aunt flow

but no positive yet either

hm....

Life is a mystery isn't it!

I am debating if I should call Dr. Grover or wait a couple weeks longer?!?

but for now I'm going to relax from a long morning at school before I have a long night at work.

Dream Bedroom

2011-02-22T09:29:00.000-08:00

Dave and I both agree. We are in love with this room.

One day, far far from now, when we build our house this will be the inspiration for the

master bedroom.

Fun Fact Friday

2011-02-18T09:48:00.000-08:00

Okay--Here is our Fun Fact of the Day!

( I will list two because I missed last week)

#1. Dave and I have decided when we have a baby girl her middle name will be Lynn

after our mother's names Lynda and Jolynn. (They ROCK)

Isn't that precious lol

I am pattening the name Emma Lynn Holt right now.

I LOVE IT.

It's ours. Use it and you will feel the wrath of the Holt House.

I'm serious.

lol

seriouslythough.

lol

#2. Dave and I eat a bowl of ice cream in bed almost every night.

Yes, this is why we are fat!

But we just love ice cream.

( I am giving this habbit up though to become skinny with my bestie Jaimee)

Dear Jaimee- please call me and remind me not to have ice cream in bed tonight!!!!!

-Loves ya, Megan

Be My Valentine

2011-02-15T10:17:00.000-08:00

Dave and I both had a busy Monday planned with school and work and we agreed to both get all of our stuff done and come home at 7pm from work and school and then we would just have a relaxing night and celebrate our Valentines on Tuesday night by having dinner at Carabba's when we would both have more energy and time. Only when I snuck home early (5pm) to try and be sneaky and surprise Dave with a home made candle lit dinner and more.....as soon as I walked into the door I realized he had beat me to the punch lol. He popped out from behind the door and covered my eyes and rushed me to the bedroom where I was locked while Dave snuck around the apartment for 2 hours preparing something....

7pm rolls around and Mr. Handsome came knocking on the door. Blindfolded and being led to the kitchen My wonderful husband revealed a GORGEOUS dinner for two arranged just like the dinner we had on the Eiffel Tower on our last trip to Paris. He had the same food, the same music, flowers, candle light, a card that was so sweet it made me cry (like always). He poored the maritinelli's in our fancy glasses just like our waiter did lol. Topped with dessert, X's and O's, it was confirmed again....My husband is awsome. I love him with all my heart!

He is smart, hardworking, cute, faithful, sweet, thoughtful, genuine, playful, manly, protective, honest, confident and so so much more.

Turns out he only got home 5 minutes before me....but I'm glad he did. I wouldn't have wanted our valentine's day any other way.

Another 2011 Valentine's suprise...being handed a lovely rose from a stranger at school with a note saying "Remember you are loved".

Day 13

2011-02-13T09:17:00.000-08:00

Day 13!

Dave and I have had such a fun weekend.

We went to the Utah Vs. BYU basketball game.

only to get a seat in the all sports pass section we had to get there extremely early, and spent an hour or two studying for tests together and trying not to have ADD with everything going on around us.

Attended our Stake Valentine's Dance.

Caught up on our shows

(Glee, Community, Office, Outsourced, Bachelor)

We just spent a lovely Sunday morning preparing my lesson for Relief Society.

Dave is such a sport and will pretend like my R.S. and I will give him the lesson and he will periodically shoot his hand up and, in a women's voice, ask questions that he thinks will be asked.

It is so funny yet extremely helpful, and helps me be less nervous.

(which I always am and don't know why)

Tonight we are off to Aunt Jeralee's for a cousin's Valentine dinner.

One of my favorite Sunday activities is going there to hang out with the family gang.

and to top it all off....the family I nanny is on a Disney cruise for one whole week.

so I get to plan a nice Valentines Day with my hubby and have....

FREEDOM!!!! / but the little munchkins will be missed

lots of sewing and baking is about to go down!

THe WAIT

2011-02-10T08:16:00.000-08:00

The hardest thing about my life these days I would say is the unknown. I find myself counting the days until I am suppose to start my period and then counting the days I am late, getting my hopes up that I am pregnant and then starting. It's a vicious cycle. Right now I am in the "getting my hopes up day 10" stage. Dave has really helped me stay positive and patient over the months. We have decided that I am not allowed to buy a pregnancy test until he gives the go ahead. This saves me from taking them too early or too often and being heartbroken its negative again. Its the perfect plan for us! If I didn't have school this semester to keep my mind so busy I think I would be going crazy! But this morning I had a great reminder. Whether I am pregnant or not, God has blessed our lives in so many ways and for those reasons alone I can go through out each day with joy and gratitude. It's hard to believe that our little one would have came just a few short weeks from now if it had been Heavenly Father's will. I trust my Heavenly Father and love him for all of the blessings he gives Dave and I each day. I love my husband soooooo much.

Now we're off to be studious!!!!

Monday Muse

2011-02-07T18:19:00.000-08:00

My Inspiration for this weekends sewing project.....ambitious...being as how I still stink at sewing....but bought my material yestarday.

I will post a picture when I am done.

Friday Fun Fact

2011-02-04T13:14:00.001-08:00

This weeks Friday Fun Fact...

We love to frolic in fields of grass

and we don't care who knows it.

FACT: you can't do it without laughing and smiling.

You should try it sometime!

Oh no no no no no

2011-02-02T20:21:00.000-08:00

Are we really moving here????

Here is a picture of roads in illinois today...02.02.11

People just abandon there cars there the storm was so bad.

I've decided I will just have to be a hermit in the winters there..

and I am ok with that.

Monday Muse

2011-02-02T12:52:00.000-08:00

Monday Muse

(also late but just as good)

‎"I believe in pink.

I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner.

I believe in kissing, kissing a lot.

I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong.

I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls.

I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."

♥ ♥ Audrey Hepburn

Fun Fact Friday

2011-01-29T16:51:00.000-08:00

Friday Fun Fact

A late but still just as fun....

Dave and I love goats.

We think they are just hilarious.

One day when we have our own house and some land we want some baby goat friends.

Desktop

2011-01-25T12:43:00.003-08:00

The current picture on our computer's desktop is so wonderful I had to share it.

Paris in Winter

Monday Muse

2011-01-24T18:23:00.000-08:00

I have been bitten by the Paris bug!

Some days I sit and wonder.....did we really go to Paris in September? I all ready want to go back. I have to keep reminding myself that medical school and children are first....then it's back to "Pareeee" for me. I recently fell in love with this photo on etsy.com. I have looked at it multiple times in the past 3 weeks and plan to have my husband surprise me with it for my birthday (hehe) and hang it in our room(he's seen it and thinks it's silly because we have hundreds of pictures all ready that we took, so feel free to surprise me instead). It would be the perfect thing to look at while I day dream of all the wonderful memories we made in Europe and matches our duvet perfectly... how convenient.

Fun Fact Friday

2011-01-21T13:42:00.001-08:00

K I have decided that every friday I will post a fun fact about Dave or Myself or both of us...

So what is the fun fact of today you might ask?

Dave was voted "best butt" in high school!

...and I would have to agree! ;)

(FYI he is shooting a rifle in this picture if you are wondering, and I was standing where I knew I would have the best view lol)

I can hear the illiNOISE

2011-01-20T15:58:00.000-08:00

It's Decided.

In June 2011 Dave and I will be moving to Illinois to attend University of Illinois.

We will live in St.Louis for June and July with Dave's parents while we find a place to live, sleep in, act like bums, work on making babies very discretely, read all of the books we have on our list of "books we want to read" and anything we can think of that we can do together or with family as much as possible before Dave devotes his life to becoming a doctor again.

School starts on August 16th....our 3 year anniversary.

We will attend our first year at UOI's campus in Champagne IL and our last three in Peoria IL.

Then we will make the other big decision of where to do his residency

We're thinking St.Luois, but who knows.

We are getting really "trunkee", Dave has a huge case of senioritis, he day dreams in class all day and forgets to do homework all the time.....and will still get all A's like always, and I have a huge case of the "IloveschoolbutIhopeitgoesquickthissemestercauseIcan'twaitforanewadventureITIS."

BYU has been good to us and will be missed....but it will be great one day to bring our kids back and check them into the dorms, show them where dad and I met, where we lived, where we would go to feed the duckies almost every sunday afternoon, where our favorite hole in the wall burger joint was, where we had our first kiss, where we used to sit and talk for hours, where we went to church, where we studied together in the library and then deck ourselves out for a BYU football game together.

I'm so proud of my husband and all of his hard work...he makes all our dreams come true.

I love you Dr.Dave

I am amazed at the amount of JOY we have in our lives after this experience and am thankful for all of your prayers and hugs and smiles. It's only been 4 moths now.

9:34pm

2011-01-09T20:34:00.000-08:00

It's 9:34p.m. on Sunday January 9, 2011...and I am exhausted! I just finished my first week of being back in school. I'm taking 17 credits in hopes to finish up my schooling before Dave and I are headed out. I have English, Philosophy, Health, Geology, and Student Success. I love school so much. I love that I am constantly being forced to challenge myself on a daily basis. I am definitely out of my comfort zone, but I am loving every minute of it. As a reward to myself I made sure to sign up for an advanced volleyball class, where I basically get to just have open gym 3 days a week. I am enjoying getting to know my professors and the people in my classes. I didn't know how I would be with my time management when it came to 17 credits and working still and then being in charge of preparing the R.S. lesson today. I don't have much free time anymore but interestingly enough I had just enough energy to finish all of the tasks required of me this week and as soon as I finished my very last task of making Dave his batch of Sunday cookies....every ounce of energy left my body....I know that Heavenly Father is watching over me and routing me on. I could not be more grateful for Him, along with a husband who does the dishes and lets me go to sleep at 9pm on school nights (yes I should be in bed now, I have class at 7am) even though he wants to stay up and play and makes me cups of hot coa coa while I'm typing away at my first research paper because he knew it would make me remember to smile and stop worrying that I am not a genius!

It's 9:44pm Sunday January 9, 2011 and I am exhausted, but I wouldn't want it any other way!

Chicago

2011-01-03T12:42:00.000-08:00

We found out end of December that Dave also got accepted to University of Illinois, Chicago. HOORAH! However this only makes choosing a place to go even harder. We we set on Kansas City but are now seriously considering UIC. The great thing about Illinois is that it is cheaper because Dave is a resident and he can also apply for multiple scholarships there. So as of today it seems as though we are going to be in Illinois for med school at 1 of their 4 campuses.

To say the least, there is lots of praying going on at the Holt House these days.

sew happy

2010-12-13T06:10:00.000-08:00

I am SEW HAPPY!

My sister and I got matching sewing machines and are having SEW much fun. We spent all day Wednesday learning how to sew a straight line, make a bobbin, thread the machine and then I taylored one of Dave's old collared shirts to fit me. I'm in love with my new sewing machine and think we have a long amazing future together!

If anyone has any awsome websites with sewing ideas send em on over!

what's next

2010-12-10T12:35:00.000-08:00

Dave got accepted to all of four the medical schools he interviewed at and we will hear back from the fifth at the end of this month. We couldn't be more excited that we have options on where to live for the next few years of our life. We love De Moines, Iowa and we LOVE Kansas City, MO....so as of right now we are deciding between those two. And then if we get into UIC in Chicago we will definately be considering that school too. So what I'm really wondering.....is where would you all come to visit us??? Chicago, De Moines or Kansas City?

Dave finished classes for the semester officially and is just relaxing and studying for his exams.

CAN YOU BELIEVE HE ONLY HAS UNTIL APRIL. Then we move.

I secretly wish we had longer....We just love BYU so much!!!!

I am doing better these days...I have enrolled in my last semester at UVU, training for my half marathon again, having the time of my life being Santa for my husband this year, Learning how to sew with my sister.....I still feel like I'm climbing back up to where I need to be emotionally, mentally and physically but one step at a time....I'm getting closer. Luckily I have Dave's big shoulder to lean on when I fall back a few steps.

THIA Yumm!

2010-11-15T09:55:00.000-08:00

Dave and I have decided this is our favorite home made meal......

Thai Curry

My AMAZING mother in law taught me to make this last Christmas. We have been making it at least every month and make enough of it for quite a few left over meals.

When I was cooking this on Sunday Dave kept calling me a 4 burner wife

like johnny lingo's "8 cow wife"hehe

Yuuuummmmmmmmmm!!!

facing my emotions

2010-11-09T12:44:00.000-08:00

I'm making this post today for those of you who have gone through a loss like this.

I hope it can help in some way.

Yesterday I had a doctors appointment to get my hormone levels checked and set up another ultrasound to make sure that nothing is still in there that shouldn't be. Before I was about to get up and leave my doctor asked me how I was doing emotionally and I suprised myself and began balling before I could even answer him....

and after a long talk we agreed I should see a pshycologist.

I think I am a happy person and have so much to be happy for and want to be happy all of the time and because of that

I don't think I have let myself go through the grieving process fully of having a miscarriage in my second trimester. I have only let out my emotions a little bit at a time then put them away and put on a happy face for the rest of my days.

Its been a month now, which seems like forever but then somedays like no time at all.

So today I faced my emotions head on.

I had my meeting with the phsycologist and I'm glad to say it helped so much.

It was relieving to have someone to lay it all out on the table with and help me sort through what I'm feeling.

someone who had a fresh look at the situation and wasn't wrapped up emotionally like family and friends are.

and yes I went through a whole box of kleenex in 1 hour.

I learned that I hate to "rain on peoples parades", and because there are so many wonderful things going on in my life to people whom I love so much I have pushed my feelings aside so that I could enjoy those happy moments with them.

....I can be happy and excited for others but still need to deal with what I'm going through.

We talked a lot about....

you can be sad and greatful at the same time

it's okay to be sad

It's healthy to grieve

what to do when I feel sad

***give it time***

and numerous other things that are personal to what I went through.

So yes I am heartbroken still and am learning how to deal with it still....but I am greatful for my testimony always and today for this.....

Yesterday DAVE opened his second med school acceptance letter to Kanas City.

That makes 2 schools now we can go to and there are even more interviews and acceptances to come I'm sure.

My husband makes me happy/proud always....no matter the circumstances.

And one day he will be the bestest dad ever!

Mindy Gledhill, I feel like I'm in a happy dream when I listen to her music

2010-11-08T10:07:00.000-08:00

SUPER SEASON

2010-11-06T10:01:00.000-07:00

byu vs. unlv

Dear Megan,

Welcome to a little thing we like to call SUPER SEASON....When Football season and Basketball season at BYU overlap and your adorable husband asks you to go to all of the home games with him, and you can't say no. Yes, it just so happens that this week that means...BYU Basketball game friday night, a ward football scrimmage in the morning and a BYU football game saturday afternoon. It's a good thing your husband is such a stud and you have so much fun cheering at the top of your lungs with him and dancing to the blaring music. SUPER SEASON....we love you, but don't make me loose my voice please.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GO COUGARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sincerely,

the wife of a very happy sports fan named Dave

we are cherishing our last season with our all sports passes before we leave to med school...

to say the least!

not a bitter betty

2010-11-02T09:23:00.000-07:00

I threw a joint baby shower for my two wonderfully prego girlfriends this saturday! I am so excited for them to be mothers and raise little BYU football players. During Sunday's church meeting Dave and I played with with our little friend abby....she's the one in the black jump suite in the front row. And as she slept in Dave's arms the second half (after her parents helped her fall asleep)I thought to myself....I'm so greatful I am not bitter towards those who get to be mothers sooner than me. ( I see that happen too often ) If anything this expirience has made me more happy for those who have success with their pregnancies and get to bring cute little chubby playmates for Dave and I.

Patience

2010-10-28T10:26:00.001-07:00

Last night as Dave and I were praying before bed I started to cry!

I just miss being pregnant. I miss holding my little belly. I miss daydreaming about what it was going to be, boy or girl. I miss talking with Dave about all of the silly fun things we were going to do with our little one and all of the silly things babies do that we would just sit and giggle at. I miss the little kids I nanny asking me questions non stop about what the baby was growing that day. I miss knowing that I was going to have a baby in March in Utah with all of my family and friends close by. I miss reading all of my books on the babies developement and how to be a good mom. I miss wearing elastic pants. I miss thinking of baby names. I miss the excitment the filled me every time I saw mother and her little one in church. It's only been 23 days today since we lost our little one. 23 days of coping. 23 days less I have to wait to start trying again. My life seems to have the theme of patience these days, and some days I am better than others.

But each day I count my blessings because I know Dave and I have been blessed in so many ways!

Halloween Time

2010-10-26T08:56:00.000-07:00

Our little apartment is starting to look a little like Halloween.

Stay tuned for our awsome Halloween costumes this year!

Dave Leaves tomorrow for his third med school interview and comes back Saturday! He will be in Chicago this time around and will stay with his brother Danny and family....Chicago=cold! But hey if the school fits...I am willing to stick it out for a few years. Dave got accepted by one school all ready but wants to check out all of his options first. I will be keeping myself busy while he is gone organizing the apartment, taking the kids I nanny to their dad's sweet company Halloween party on Friday (Omniture flies in mijits from vegas to dress up every year and decorates every wing in the building for kids and grown ups to trick or treat through...it's huge) and throwing a joint baby shower for two wonderful friends saturday.

sweet somethings

2010-10-19T10:26:00.000-07:00

Here is the first thing that little Mary (age 6) said to me when I picked her up from school Monday....

"Megan, I'm sorry about your baby. but I'm happy you get to be my nanny longer."

Followed by a big hug from that little sweetheart!

I love her!!!

Friends

2010-10-17T04:08:00.000-07:00

Most people think they have good friends but I just had to take a moment to brag about some of ours... Not only are they fun, hilarious, we could talk forever with them, we never get sick of them, can't get enough of them....but they are soooo thoughtful and caring too.

Dave and I have been pretty recluse since we moved into our new apartment....be it school, loosing our little one and work...it seems like every free moment we have had, we have kept to ourselves!

So this weekend we decided we were going to hang out with some of our favorite friends.

aka...the besties lol

Out of the 8 of these friends 5 of them have October birthdays so we went to Tucanos SLC for their free birthday lunches.

We laughed a lot and ate enough food to feed a small country.

Then we watched the BYU football game. (horrible)

Then we went to Sammy's....our favorite, hole in the wall, burger joint, and got pie shakes.

Then had a great game night.

At the end of the night they suprised Dave and I with a gift.

It was a WAY too expensive gift card to only be used for a weekend getaway for 2, with an explanation saying they loved us and knew we needed it after what we just went through and Dave leaving so much for med school interviews soon. and that we had to take photos, when appropriate, to prove we used it for a getaway.

I couldn't help but cry. Spending the day out with them was enough for me, but how amazingly thoughtful!

Especially because we are all poor college students and they are all about to have babies!!

If they are half as good at being parents as they are at being good friends to Dave and I....they will still be amazing parents!!!! I mean it!

So......yes....our friends are awsome in every way!

Dave and I plan to use our gift when we are ready to try for little one #2. hehe

we feel so blessed because we know these aren't our only awsome friends!

Thank You

2010-10-15T12:02:00.000-07:00

Thank you everyone for your comments and prayers. We are keeping strong and carrying on and smiling while we count our blessings.

I had no idea so many people read my blog. I have had so many calls, messages and emails in response to posting. I was really hesitant to post about this expirience but I know it is much easier to have someone know than to come up to me and ask me how our baby is and what not.

We feel so blessed to have such comforting friends and family and a firm knowledge of the Gospel Thank you again!

Hugs, The Holts

Mom got Hitched

2010-10-15T07:22:00.000-07:00

Meet the new Mr & Mrs Nelson.

(aka my adorable mother and sweet new step father dancing down the isle)

Yep! They are pretty much made for eachother!

Lately I have been counting my blessings and here is one that is pretty recent.

I haven't seen or heard my mother be so happy in 13 years!

She is radiating Joy and Happiness.

I feel lucky to have been married to Dave for almost 2.5 years and still feel the same way.

But there is no woman more deserving of such a great guy, than my mom!

We are so happy for you little Mrs.

Gaurdian Angels

2010-10-09T14:44:00.000-07:00

Well here it goes.....recently Dave and I have gone through something pretty heartbreaking and I have had a few days now to try and learn how to cope with it and I think it helps to just talk about it....rather than ignore the world and pretend like nothing happened.

Dave and I got back from Paris on cloud nine and I thought life couldn't get any better. We had just had the time of our lives, our little one was growing, Dave had received interview offers from 7 med schools and we were head over heals in love with each other. A few days later we went in for my 18 week checkup at the clinic. Our Dr. took my vitals and samples and said everything looked great and that we should schedule an ultrasound to see what our little one was...a boy or a girl. Then it was time to use the doppler and hear that precious little heartbeat we had hear just a few weeks previous. She kept moving the doppler around on my stomach and telling me to relax so it would work...1 minute turned into two....two minutes turned into four and still we couldn't find a heart beat. I was scared but kept telling myself the doppler is just stupid machine. So my Dr. went right over to her computer and asked if I would have time today to go straight to the hospital to get an ultrasound....I said yes and started to ball but was still hoping for the best. As we got to the hospital I was trying really hard not to cry....I was so worried. We went into the first room which had multiple beds and machines seperated by curtains....I kept looking at the T.V. at our little baby while the first nurse took an ultrasound and felt so much love for it. I was amazed at how big it was all ready and relieved to just be able to see our little one finally, even if there was no heartbeat. I wasn't oblivious that our nurse was silent until she asked us to move into a seperate room......it was just us sitting there in a dark room now in solitude. Another nurse came in and took a look at the baby again. She measured it and explained to us that the baby had swelling around it's head and had passed away a few weeks earlier (shortly after our last appointment where we heard the heart beat). I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. Sweet dave held me as I tearfully asked the nurse for a picture to keep. Then the Doctor came in to confirm that our little one had gone to heaven sooner than we had hoped and what would happen next. We have never been so heartbroken in our life. I know miscarriages are common....but I thought being 18 weeks along I was in the clear and was oh so excited to be a mother and for Dave to be a Father. There was nothing left to do after the doctors but to cry. Dave and I held each other and we cried for the next 24 hours. Then came the hardest part....That next afternoon Dave had to catch a flight out to St. Louis for his first med school interview....I was so excited for him and greatful that we had something to look forward to and talk about after such bad news...but now I was left alone to deal with this for the next 4 days.

I am so greatful for Dave because I know I could not have made it through those 4 days if he hadn't made me the strong woman I am today. I turned to the Lord and counted my blessings. My family were angels and brought me food and hugs. My ward was great and brought me food and hugs. I was at the point where I knew I was going to be ok and felt ready to talk about it...and then Friday came. Still no word from the Dr. as to when I could go in and get a DNC...my house was spotless, and I didn't know what to do with myself....so I went to the gym. after being on the eliptical for about 2 minutes....my water broke. I ran to the bathroom and called my sister and asked her to bring me some clothes. I talked with the Dr. and then went home. I ended up passing the fetus in my own apartment, by myself, with Dave on the phone. I was in shock and shaking and greatful Dave had some Lortab to help with the contractions in the pantry. When I saw the fetus I couldn't hold back the tears. It was so developed....little fingures, a little nose.

I just want to bare my testimony that I know Heavenly Father knows each and everyone of us individually and loves us. Maybe our little one was just a faithful spirit that just needed a little body...but now they are in a happier and holy place and that brings me happiness. I cry not because I am bitter but because I was just so excited to be a mother and a family with my wonderful husband. But I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for us. That we will have children here on earth one day and that now we have a little gaurdian angel to look over us now.

2010-10-07T13:33:00.000-07:00

Thank you to a friend who left this on my doorstep!

It's just what I needed to hear.

"The Lord compensates the faithful for every loss. That which is taken away from those who love the Lord will be added unto them in His own way. While it may not come at the time we desire, the faithful will know that every tear today will eventually be returned a hundredfold with tears of rejoicing and gratitude."

-Joseph B. Wirthlin.

Happy Birthday

2010-10-04T10:28:00.000-07:00

My Birthday Boy!

Today my wonderful husband turns 25.

Happy Birthday Mr. Holt.

Your birth is definitely something to celebrate and it is amazing

all of the things you have accomplished this year!

XoXoXo

it's like Christmas!!!!!!

2010-09-20T20:42:00.000-07:00

The odds that we are going to make it to med school are good these days.

Dave has interviews at the following places in the next 3 months.

Lake Erie Penn

Kansas City Missouri

Chicago, Illinois

University of Southern Illinois, also near Chicago

Kirksville, Missouri

Finding out Dave has an interview is like Christmas everytime. It never gets old. And we are having so much fun celebrating each time.

I am so excited because 4 of these schools are near family.....and that's all I really care about.

It is a little scary to think that We will be leaving Utah, with all of our family and friends here with a 3 month old baby and will have to make it work wherever we are, but I wouldn't have it any other way. Dave is AWSOME and it is so nice to be over the stressful hump of applying for med schools.....just one last step of interviewing and summer dave will be back in business!!! (yes he sometimes continues into fall.....mainly because of football season)

As if this news isn't enough to keep a smile on my face.....We leave for Europe in less than 2 days. We found out our hotel reservation didn't go through which was kind of scary, but the people in Paris were wonderful and helped us fix that quickly. So now everything is set.

Yes I am so scared of flying but it will be worth it....and I have Unisom to help me sleep. I took half a pill last night and literally did not move for 12 hours. It was glorious!!!! The baby and I are finally sleeping well.

I'm happy to report that our little one is the size of a softball now....I have gained a pound (it's harder work than I thought) and I am predicting it is a girl because the heart rate was 160 beats/minute.......but I could be wrong....but I would be so excited if I wasn't!!!!

It's the little things in life....

2010-09-13T09:42:00.000-07:00

This morning I woke up smiling and can't stop.

Maybe this is why......

1. Having Dave come home from the gym this morning and flexing for me and making me giggle while I wake up. He is such a stud.

2. Watching the Price is Right while eating a bowl of delicious Cheerios with strawberries. I love that show!!!!

3. Knowing I have to go to work at 2:30 and that it will consist of taking the girls to gymnastics in their adorable leotards and then taking all three kids to their annual school carnival....which they are so excited for!!!!! ( I can't believe this will be my third carnival with them) I love my job.

4. Remembering the fact that in 9 days I will be in EUROPE and am going to eat pastries and waffles for every meal....well for the baby's sake I will throw a few fruits and veggies in there too ;)

5. Feeling like the luckiest woman alive each and every day because I have a husband who works so hard for us and the future of our family....and counting down the days til he has his med school interviews.

6. PLanning to have a fun Family Home Evening of cutting my husbands hair and making Strawberry/Rasberry freezer Jam together for the first time.

7. Planning 2 baby showers for my 2 prego girlfriends in the same weekend....and loving every minute of it.

8. Having awsome regional stake confrences with apostle that make me giggle because of their cuteness.....and hearing EXACTLY what I need to hear from them to help me be inspired to grow a little more and become a better person. wife and mother.

Yep!!!! Life is good. and I am loving the fact that my tear filled 1st trimester is over and that I can smile away now!!!!

thump thump

2010-09-07T13:20:00.001-07:00

Today really is an amazing day!!! Yes, it's true I'm home sick in bed. Sneezing and coughing and sleep deprived, but I feel like I'm on cloud nine. You see....this morning Dave and I went to the doctor's office for attempt #2 to hear the baby's heartbeat and to make sure I wasn't dying. ( I'm not FYI ) Attempt #1 we heard nothing and I left bawling because I was fearing the worst. (which isn't saying much because I pretty much bawled through the whole first trimester) But today we heard it loud and clear. Like a little drummer. The little one is apparently growing away in my baby cooker....and even though we haven't seen it yet, hearing it made it so much more real. The shocking news....I have lost weight in my first trimester, even though I feel large and in charge and my doctor says I need to fatten up more now. So if anyone has any tips or any good recipes....let me know. I did get some unisom, which will hopefully help me eat and sleep better. Being pregnant is the BEST though! We will get back from Europe just in time to make it to our first ultrasound appointment on October 5th. So we'll be seeing you then little one! Can't wait!

My first French phrase I learned "Ju seis enciente" which means "I'm pregnant" ;)

I'm a proud momma today and I all ready love my little one soooooooooooooo much!

Oh no....here come the tears again!!!! Bring 'em on.

Moving on up

2010-07-01T11:27:00.001-07:00

This month is going to be so exciting and so scary at the same time.

Dave and I have decided to finally move to a larger place that is cheaper and has brand new carpet and brand new paint. I'm convinced it is going to feel like a little peice of Heaven after where we have lived the past 2 years. Not only will we be saving a few pennies but we have been having mold and mngmt problems where we are at now are are excited to be free of that. Dave says the mold is making us stupid....lol

The kids I nanny are off to Arizona with their mom for ten days so it's up to me to pack up our things while Dave studies for his MCAT some more. We then leave for Spokane on July 14th, for Dave to take his MCAT again and for our family reunion. We come back the 25th. We move out the 26th.....Like I said, I'm excited and scared. I'm sad to be away from all of my friends, it's been so nice to walk out your door and see everyone else coming and going and saying hello and goodbye. I am confident we will all still be just as great of friends. We have loved our ward, our apartment (for the most part), our friends, our location, and the growth and love we have felt here.

So here is to moving forward and becoming a stronger and happier Mr. And Mrs. Holt.

Summer Dave

2010-06-15T15:34:00.000-07:00

Dear Summer Dave,

I love you and your cute bummy wummy!

XoxO

your loving, adoring and lucky to have you wife

Good things are worth waiting for.

2010-06-10T20:22:00.000-07:00

Recently I have come to realize just how important patience is. I'm realizing how good things are worth waiting for. Dave and I waited 4 years before getting married. now we are waiting to start a family and to see what med school we get into. We wait for these grand things but we don't let a moment pass without realizing how lucky we are. We have had so much fun together and are so lucky to be so blessed.

The sweetheart Dance 2004, our first kiss.....3 month after hanging out every day. Don't know how we made it that long.

Driving Dave to the airport 2004

I have been feeling really nostalgic lately... being at BYU in the summer, I can't help but remember the first summer Dave and I met. It was June 2004. We met at the freshman orientation dance. Yes we used to dance. From that night on we spent EVERY day together and almost every hour we could spare... until Dave's mission. I have so many fond memories of laying under the stars just talking for hours on campus, or going on adventurous dates. Six years have past and a lot has changed, But I can honestly say I have loved him since that June night in 2004. Dave never gave up on my fickleness, but I couldn't have been more stupid to not act a few years earlier to snatch up good things like Dave and never let them go. I feel so grateful to have such a wonderful man by my side through thick and thin. My love for him is stronger than it has ever been. I feel blessed to be able to share his struggles and honored to help lift him when he's down. He has helped me become who I am today and has helped me have so much joy that I never even imagined having in life.

They never said life would be easy but man is it worth it when you have such a wonderful man.

Park City

2010-06-03T22:01:00.000-07:00

Our friends the Mathews recently graduated and moved away for further schooling so we planned a a reunion to get together and have some fun.

We lucked out to be able to stay in a cabin in Park City Utah for FREE. It was the perfect kick off to summer. We enjoyed staying up until 3am giggling and watching movies...

Having Campfires and looking at this awsome few from the deck...Dave and I woke up every morning and sat on the porch and read side by side, while we listened to the birds.

Hanging out with these lovely ladies...

Yelling "SUMMEr DAVE" and cheering as a group whenever Dave stayed up passed midnight or did something fun hehe

Shopping on Main Street and finding these free hats to keep our hair dry in the pooring rain.

Finding cute $3.00 shirts that we loaded up on.

Riding the trolly.

Driving around the mountains and looking at some of the amazing houses up there.

Eating out at the best burger joint in Summit County.

Seeing Robin Hood opening night.

Watching Dave act in Gestures and trying not to pee my pants.

Getting heated in a game of memory....yes memory.

Watching the deer run around our cabin windows.

Cooking meals for eachother.

We had such a great time and are thankful for such wonderful friends to spend our time their with. Great friends can be rare and we hope to be life long friends with these 4. Can't wait for our next adventure.

Belgium Waffles

2010-05-26T05:44:00.000-07:00

So yesterday at work I recieved a rather intriguing text from my husband.

Dave: "Would you like to go to Belgium in September"

Me: "Yes, Please"

At first I thought this was a joke, but I soon realized that Dave isn't a joker, so I called him as soon as I got off.

For the past couple of years Dave has ben able to go to these international research confrences with all expenses paid by BYU with his professor at the BYU research lab. He's gone to California and Montreal while I have stayed at home and scrapbooked or knitted :)....well this September it's in Belgium and Dave wants me to come too. Dave will have his flight, food and hotel all ready paid by BYU so we just need to pinch our pennies so I can come tag along. When else would we get to travel there for just half the price. I'm trying to not get my hopes up too much, but Dave kind of blew it the moment he told me this posibility. LETS MAKE IT HAPPEN!

So cross your fingers for me.

NEW TOYS

2010-05-20T23:11:00.000-07:00

Goodbye Maxima....we'll miss you, but we hope someone buys you soon.

Well it's been almost 2 years of me driving a stick and apparently I'm still horrible at it because Dave felt like I was killing our Maxima, so.....We bought a new car. A 2004 Honda Accord. We weren't really planning on doing this so soon, but the right car came along for a steal of a price (>auction price)....so YAY!!! It's Cougar blue and an automatic which is my favorite part and has all the bells and whistles our Maxima had. So SHOCKED we got such a nice car, I was expecting a hoopty. I'm glad I love it because we're stuck with it until it dies....which is hopefully a

very VERY VERY long time from now.

Not the best picture but isn't it perdy!

We allready decked it out with a BYU sticker.

Nanny Diaries

2010-05-20T22:18:00.000-07:00

Scera Pool

These little boogers get out of school next week and we are planning the BEST SUMMER EVER. I am putting together a water party in their backyard for them and their friends to kickoff the first day of summer next Friday...Last year it consisted of all of Sam and his friends chasing me around with water baloons. I can't believe that I will have been their nanny for 2 WHOLE YEARS as of this August. I feel so lucky. They are so Fun and Nice and just dang LOvable.

I feel like a proud momma, they have all done so dang well in school this year and next year even little Mary will be in school all day long instead of half days.

I just don't know If I can handle not having our own little play time together every afternoon filled with picnics and trampolines and tea parties and parks.

I will just have to make do I guess.

Here were some of our adventures from last summer...because they are older and stronger this year we are going to try and do bigger adventures!!!

I have too much fun with my job!

Hogle Zoo

Bridal Veil Falls

Back Yard shinanigans

in a nut shell

2010-05-13T08:52:00.000-07:00

Hello Again-

I know I'm lame....California was AMAZING my sister was a beautiful bride and I loved spending so much time with her as well as the rest of my family. Now the newlyweds have officially moved in next door and yesterday she came over to barrow a cup of milk...it made my day! We were lucky enough to have my mother over for dinner on Mother's day. We made her thai food and played games until late at night. This week I have been working like crazy before my boss leaves for London next week and his house undergoes renovations (which I will have to clean up :( ) Last night was our second intramural kickball game, we won...I LOVE KICKBALL. but Tonight I'm off to Park City for a weekend getaway with some of the funnest people in the world that I have missed dearly. We'll be back Sunday and then....then I promise to post details and pictures.

-I am loving post MCAT life with Dave! He is amazing and We have too much fun! lol

Tootaloo!!!

Running Home

2010-05-11T08:33:00.000-07:00

My half marathon training is going a lot better than I expected. I've been able to run atleast up to 2 miles a day and sometimes up to six miles. That is my hump....I just mentally poop out after 6, even though my body feels like it can keep going.Even if I don't make it the whole 13.5 miles for the race, I have all ready made it farther than I ever could have imagined. I used to get tired after running for like 5 minutes....and now I can run 5 miles and it's no big deal. And I am actually enjoying my runs. I guess this means I'M A RUNNER, just like my momma : ).

Who'd a thunk it.

My sister Ashley and I went running a few times while we were in California. We got stranded in the rain miles from home, however, it was while we were at the Beautiful Marina....so I didn't really mind. We hid out in the local bait shop there until it stopped...then ran to the train station where we had to take shelter again because it started storming again. It was a fun adventure. I forgot just how beautiful it is there...but they say home is where the heart is and I left my heart in Provo with Dave!

2010-04-26T16:29:00.000-07:00

I'm off to California tomorrow for 5 whole days!!! I can't wait. Here is what I will be up to.

0. Helping the family prepare for Ashley's outdoor wedding reception.

1.My older sister Ashley's wedding....woohoo

2. Lunch with my bestie. Jamiee.

3. Laying poolside in the afternoons

4. Riding my bike through SF....one of my favorite things to do.

5. Playing cards with Gma and Gpa.

6. Laughing histarically with my siblings.

7. Making Thia food for my mom.

8. Running every morning down to the marina.

9. Getting manis and pedis with my sisters and madre.

9.5. Biting all of my cute nails off while I wonder what score Dave will get on his MCAT and where we will end up for med school.

10.visiting with old friends.

11. Going through my old closet and bring back all of my clothes I left there....I'm excited to find some good stuff.

11.5. Taking MILLIONS of pictures of all the things I miss.

12. Calling Dave nightly do whisper sweet nothings and tell him I miss him horribly and love him dearly.

BE BACK SUNDAY!!!! And get ready for oodles of photos from Cali.

Pappa Holt

2010-04-17T10:03:00.000-07:00

I just think it is so cute that Dave is so over-protective of me and our future kids....and I'm not even a preggy meggy yet. He has me taking multiple suppliments daily to help our kids be smart and healthy. He threw out some water bottle this morning because it had some substance in it that "could" possibly be harmful I guess...lol... I have no idea what he was talking about ...He has me eating healthy and baught me a nice comfy new matress so when I do get pregnant I sleep well. We have been daydreaming a lot lately about what it will all be like once I do get prego.

He's going to be such a cute dad.

I'm trying to be patient...but I'm so ready to be a mom one day soon!

Today

2010-04-13T09:42:00.000-07:00

SO sorry I am neglecting my blog these days. I have been working as many hours as possible and cleaning as much as possible so when Dave gets home I'm all his. Only 2.5 weeks left until he takes the MCAT, but don't remind him because he'll get nervous. We are loving life though and loving eachother more than EVER. Dave and I have had so much joy lately with such a wonderful general conference that lit a fire in both of us to be better in so many ways....and by making some changes we have felt miraculously happier and closer to our Heavenly Father.

I know it's hard to make changes sometimes but I know because of these small itty-bitty changes Heavenly Father blessed me with some amazing expiriences this last week...too special to share.

Let's just say I know my Heavely Father lives and loves each and everyone of us!!!

I am so greatful for the knowledge that I have that I am a daughter of God.

For temples.

For a living Prophet to guide me, along with his apostles.

For oppertunities to serve in capacities that are challenging but necesary to help ourselves and others reach their potentional and be comforted.

For eternal families.

For personal revelation.

For the Atonement of our Savior Jesus Christ.

For the Priesthood.

For all of this and so many more reason that I am pondering about today....TODAY will be the best day ever!

Blooming

2010-03-30T15:21:00.000-07:00

I decided to put one of Dave's old torn shirts to good use. I used a cookie cutter and traced flowers on it then after cutting them out used a lighter to burn the edges then...folded them and used my handy dandy needle and thread to sew them together...I think I will make a few more and use them for a cute headband....or maybe spice up the collar of one of my shirts....Fun eh!

Geek Chic Homemaker

2010-03-30T08:36:00.000-07:00

I have been trying to spend more time with Dave in his research lab. Lately he has been craming for the MCAT and has been so busy working on getting some research published along with his regular school projects and work. This man is Superman I swear. We've been having lots of meals in his lab and listening to pandora while he works and I read. I have really been enjoying our time together there. Here are some fun things I have found this week that I am excited to try.

First.... some Gel Electrophoresis cookies...they look just like what Dave does in the lab.

So cute huh? Her baking ideas are GENIUS!!!

Second...my boss recently had me take DNA swabs of the kids last night so that he can get THIS....

Your probably wondering what This is...Well my boss is having canvas art made of his and his children's decoded DNA. We had a FHE lesson on how unique they are and that no one has the same DNA they do. Everyone has a unique "You" code. I asked them what makes something expensive/valueble...they answered how rare it is. Then I told them there is only one of YOU so that makes you priceless. Then we took their DNA swabs to mail in. It was such a fun lesson and I am so excited to get the canvases back to hang up for them. One day I would like to do this for Dave and I and kids too. Check it out....www.dna11.com. (little pricey but only because not very many people make DNA art yet. I asked Dave to see if maybe he could figure out a way to decode our DNA in his lab for me to make a print to frame. we shall see.)

So Geek Chic!

Get a Grip

2010-03-25T14:27:00.000-07:00

"I used to have a handle on life....but the handle broke off a few days ago"

hehe...Just a little quote that I saw while I was out and about yesterday that basically describes how Dave and I have been feeling these days along with why I haven't been blogging!

TWIHARD 2

2010-03-12T08:08:00.000-08:00

Dave and I watched this last night....I'm so excited and can't wait for June 30th to be here allready. Dave, although in denial, is duely just as excited to see Jacob's shirt off again. He is definately team jacob!!! lol

The newest addition

2010-03-11T16:33:00.000-08:00

Here is our newest neice. Claire! Isn't she a doll. I can't wait to hold her.

She will be closest in age to our children, since she is the last to be born on Dave's side. I am determined to have a girl first so that they can be best of friends.

Sending you hugs and kisses.

Love, Uncle Dave and Aunt Megan

Ciao Bella Photography

2010-03-11T10:40:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling inspired today by a friends photo blog.

Check it out...here.

I love her ability to make simple things so visually intriguing.

You can even buy her prints...here...

She also takes portraits, I have been begging Dave to get pictures takin' of us, but we just have no time until after the Mcat.

check her portaits out here

I think I want to buy a print for my birthday gift to myself...but I'm having a hard time deciding.

I just love her pictures! Makes me way too anxious for us to buy a sweet camera... but I need to do some research first.

Any advice on what kind of camera and lens to get???

FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-09T08:27:00.000-08:00

OKay..I woke up this morning and all I could think about is that Dave takes his MCAT in only a month and a half!!!!!! I am so nervous for him, but so excited for the studying madness to be over. We have so many plans for this summer, I am convinced it is going to be EPIC!

Here is our "Dave is free let's party and do everything" list for the summer.

0. Apply To Medschool....WOO HOO it's finally here.!!

1. Hit all of the sweet UTah Camping spots.

1.5. Find all of the great hikes we keep hearing about in UTah...and hike them ;)

2. Read all of the books we have listed, but have no time to read.

3. Tour de Utah Temples.

4. Refinish furniture to sell...or keep for our next place.

5. GET PREGNANT ;) I'm looking forward to this one the most.

6. Road trip to Cor De Lane with friends. This is where we took our honeymoon and love going back.

7. Dave wants to get his research papers published/ I want to finish the few children's books I have been working on and check out getting them published.

8. Go back to Holt Farm and play in the fields...ride some tractors...not get tetnus!! lol

9. Go to Lagoon...neither of us have been.

10. Do a sprint Triathalon together in St. George.

11. I'm running the Utah Valley Half Marathon....my goal is to complete it lol

12. Go shooting at least two dozen times

12.5. Festival of Colors

13. Go to California....my home sweet home!!! ride bikes to and around SF. Take Dave to all of the amazing resturaunts that I miss. Visit with family and friends.

14. Go to all the weddings....my sister's and 2 cousins....I'm sure there will be more to come...

15. Go to see the new Twilight at midnight.....yes I plan on bringing Dave...and although he would never admit it...he loves Jacob and his hot bod. lol jk.

16. Go tandum bike riding up Bridal Veil Falls....we are really curious how far up the path goes...and picnic at the end.

17. Invest

18. Did I mention GET PREGNANT!!

So keep Dave in your Prayers...May 1st will be here before we know it and he will be taking his test. And then it's party time!!!! So if anyone has fun ideas and wants to join in on enjoying "Summer Dave" with me just let us know....although I am tempted to keep him all to myself. And thank you everyone for helping me stay so positive and giving me oppertunities to serve and reminding me that there is light at the end of the tunnel. We are so very blessed and I'll never forget it!!!

WOO HOO. I'm so excited.

Holt Farm

2010-03-01T07:27:00.000-08:00

Dave and I took a trip down to Southern Utah last weekend to stay with his Grandma Stratton in Cedar City while Dave presented some research st SUU at the annual Undergraduate Research convention for Utah. Because Dave is so busy with school, work and studying for the MCAT non-stop, it was so great to just pack up and head out with no worries for a few days. We daydreamed the whole drive down about our future family, future house, future dream cars....it was really fun. Saturday we dorve to Pearl Junction where his family owns an alfalfa farm. It's about 300 acres of alfalfa and a few thousand for the cattle. Daves family would drive there every summer and stay for a week or two so Dave has a lot of fond memories there. Grandpa Holt gave a 49 dodge truck to Dave which we hope to restore one day! One day....

Dave took lots of pictures of his truck so that he can start getting appraisels or parts that he might need one day. While he was poking around he got a teenie tiny cut on his finger. On our way back to Provo he kept commenting on how his finger really itched....then it began to swell. We made it home safe and went to bed....the next morning Dave had swollen up at all of his joints (elbows, wrists, ankles, knees, fingers etc.) and was itchy and red. It was hard for him to walk and not be in pain. We googled what it could be and figured he must have an allergic reaction or a bacterial infection from the cut so we picked up the benedryl and hydrocordizone cream....but nothing worked. We decided it would be best if we went to Urgent care...They took a few tests but couldn't conclude what it was so gave him medicine for both Tetnus and an allergic reaction. He's back to normal now, took him a few days. Thank goodness, Dave was so calm but I definately was not so well at hiding my worries for him. I new Dave was accident prone when I met him and now that we're married I'm glad I get to take care of him, sometimes I want to wrap him in bubble wrap and give him a helmet to wear at all times though.

This one is a doozy!

2010-02-24T08:51:00.000-08:00

(finishing my first 5k in Martinez with my mom)

So as of now I am officially feeling like the laziest girl in my entire family. My mother is constantly running races and riding her bike or hiking. My sister Janae just finished a half marathon and Ashley has ran in numerous races as well. Myself.....I've done two 5ks. Both which I didn't really train for but did for fun. My mom and I were talking on the phone the other day and I was telling her how I feel like I need to train and run for something so I can stop feeling like the fat lazy girl in the bunch. And so.....we came to the conclusion to run the Provo Caynon half marathon. THAT'S 13.1 MILES! holy moly. I don't know if I am physically capable of this but I sure am going to try.

How am I going to make it.....baby steps. I woke up today and ran 2 miles. That is 2 miles more than I have ran all month. Tomorrow I plan to run three.

I'm making this post so you can all hold me accountable. Don't let me quite on my goal.

Also if you have any training tips or good songs for my ipod please comment them.

.BABY STEPS.

making it work

2010-02-24T07:33:00.000-08:00

With the MCAT just around the corner Dave's free time seems to be all consumed with studying and projects. I just keep needing to remind myself that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. MAY 1st, then we will be free to spend time together, free to talk to eachother freely without interuppting studying, free to do fun things on the weekend, instead of studying. Last night Dave seemed pretty worn out from his repeating daily schedule of just constantly studying so I woke up and pressed snooze for him, gave him a 5 minute back scratch and then made bacon and eggs for breakfast. I know there isn't much I can do to lighten his load but I am trying to give him a daily doze of joy to help lift his spirits. Any ideas of sweet somethings are welcome.

Girls Just want to Have Fun

2010-02-18T10:36:00.000-08:00

My wonderful cousin Heather (on the right) arranged for all of the girls in the area in our family to get together for lunch at Zupas the other day to celebrate and catch up. It was so fun just so sit down, us girls, and have Ashley and Caitlyn show off their new engagement rings and share their stories. Then Aunt Jeralee, being the thoughtful and creative girl that she is suprised us with Valentine Cookies from Dear Lizzie's, which is a cute boutique I have yet to step into in Alpine. Then 15 minutes later Heather, being the thoughtful, creative/homemaker that she is whipped out homemade sugar cookies for each of us. Can't wait to do it again next month.....I feel the need to bring something delicious to whip out then...so I will be plotting.

I'm greatful to have such awsome ladies to call family!

Peer Pressure

2010-02-18T10:14:00.001-08:00

The little girls I nanny are pressuring me to have a baby....keep in mind they are five and seven. ;) They are always asking me what I'll name HER...(apparently they only want a girl baby), and they ask me how big my belly will get and how much longer I am going to wait. The other night after dinner I had a short talk with the girls about why a woman's body changes so much when they are "growing a baby". They giggled, told me that I should have a baby allready and then dissapeared into the laundry room while I did the dishes. a few minutes past and I began to hear giggles getting louder and louder...so I finished up and then went to investigate.

I then opened the door to find THIS....

BaHahahaha

They then proceeded to waddle around the house with their hands on their lower backs pretending to be a prego Megan until bed time.

I love my job!

I just hope they don't make fun of me when I actually do balloon up to grow a baby.

Dancing through Life

2010-02-18T08:23:00.000-08:00

I came across this video this morning while goofing around online. Little did I know I would end up in tears. Blame it on the birth control.

Make sure and have the volume on first.

Where the Hell is Matt? (2008) from Matthew Harding on Vimeo.

I felt so inspired by this video and had a rush of thoughts and emotions while watching it. Yes we are all so different but we all have the ability to find Joy and we should all be doing it together. One person's decision to be happy can have a huge effect! Sometimes I feel like I shy away from people that are a little different from myself, I am challenging myself to embrace them a little more from now on. I'm also challenging Dave to dance with me like this tonight after work.....because that would bring me joy.

I think this might be my favorite Utube video of all time.....what's yours?